Remembering

I spent the weekend feeling blue about life. Financial strains, sick child, homework, housecleaning...you know all the normal single mom stuff.

On Friday evening after Hank was done Sapbooking (jealous of him he got three pages done) I put him in my bed so he would go to sleep. Thanks to my sister I realized I had let him stay up until about midnight. I spent some time on the phone with my sister. After our conversation of about two hours I sat on my couch and just cried and let all my emotions out.

This is what I thought about:

My life is going to continue for an endetermined amount of days. I can spend these days sitting here crying, or I can make some better choices.

Remember what it was like to be carefree, to run around outside without your shoes on? I remember what it was like to visit Papa and get ice cream. Remember when you didn't have to worry about cooking dinner, macaroni and cheese was fine if mom wasn't cooking for you.

I have come to the conclusion that I want Hank to have memories of carefree days, enjoying life. I found a picture of my Aunt Barbs with hair extensions on and a big smile on her face. She was genuinely happy and enjoying every minute of us making fun of her. I want everyone who knows me to have some memory of me being carefree and HAPPY.

So my goal is to create memories like that for myself and for Hank. I am going to start with at least a once a week thing. No tv no computer just pure fun.

18 Ways to Be

I received this through Sisterwomen an online sight for women. I thought it was awesome so I am posting it here.


18 Ways to Be
1. Be strong enough to face the world each day.
2. Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything.
3. Be generous to those who need your help.
4. Be frugal with what you need yourself.
5. Be wise enough to know that you do not know everything.
6. Be foolish enough to believe in miracles.
7. Be willing to share your joys.
8. Be willing to share the sorrows of others.
9. Be a leader when you see a path others have missed.
10. Be a follower in the midst of uncertainty.
11. Be the first to congratulate an opponent who succeeds.
12. Be the last to criticize a colleague who fails.
13. Be sure where your next step will fall, so that you will not stumble.
14. Be sure of your final destination, in case you are going the wrong way.
16. Be loving to those who love you.
17. Be loving to those who do not love you; they may learn to love because of you.
18. Be yourself.

Hank had a blast being Superman for Halloween. Didn't take too many pictures but he enjoyed himself.

After about six houses he was done getting candy. He would go up and say Happy Halloween, and then if they didn't have a candy he liked he would say "no Thank you". He even told one lady he didn't need anymore candy it isn't good for him he needs to stay healthy. Not sure where he gets that from! The lady ended up giving him Play Dough instead.

We had our friend John and his son go with us it was fun.